ON THE PATH OF GAIN

Dear Angel, 

I’m sorry for the earth & sky 

You shared alone. 

I’m sorry for the air 

You breathed alone. 

I’m sorry for the flowers you touched, 

And the games you played alone. 

I earned a lot, 

Achieved the goals  

Beyond my dreams, 

Touched the horizons of success, 

But all without you , my love. 

In a trance of trampling success 

I forgot you’re a part of me, 

I forgot you’re in me. 

Not only that, 

I forgot the days 

When I told you to brush your teeth, 

Helped you to get dressed, 

 And go to school. 

When we went to park 

You holding my finger & walked 

The green patches of our grassy lawn. 

I’m very sorry to say 

I have seen you grow 

All alone in my presence 

With your west-ward emotions 

Full of breezy lull. 

I missed your first day at school, 

First football match, 

Your Halloween Parade 

And many more. 

Now they are countless to write, 

Countless to read. 

Dear doll, 

In your suffering 

I too have suffered 

By allowing my priorities over my relationship 

All at the cost of globetrotting job. 

This I could know 

 A year ago 

When I asked you to remember 

What you missed 

When I was away. 

You asked me to wait, 

Went to your room 

 And came with a piece of paper, 

And handed me a list of 22 events 

Surely important one for you, 

Important one for me. 

 List of events & activities you compiled . 

Both you & I missed 

Due to my so called commitments. 

Surely it was a wake-up call! 

Excuses apart 

Each missing events 

Weighed heavy upon me, 

My tours , travels & meets. 

 But I was sure enough now 

By doing so I have missed 

A thread of life & love. 

It deeply hurts to know 

I allowed my relations 

 To ride on unruly waves 

Of misleading commitments. 

 Work may be worship 

But not at the cost of you. 

Now I’m with you 

Binding knot to knot 

And kissing every smile.

 (Rajiv kumar/29/09/2014)